another thing

The next thing that I think we thought of once the "shock" of finding out there are two babies was where on earth will we put them?

I bought the house we live in before we were married. It was a perfect house for a single girl. It got a little more crowded when the hubs moved in but we figured out how to make it work. When Jadyn was born (and even now) we had to move a lot of things around but no biggie, and we knew it would be tight to add another but figured cozy could work. However, we didn't have room for 2 more babies. We couldn't fit 2 cribs in the baby room.

Moving isn't an option. The real estate market has killed our value. It's not practical to move. We have a giant back yard and have always figured that we will add things to the back but we weren't expecting to do it so soon!

To make room for the babies we ended up converting our garage to a new master bedroom and moving the baby room to the old master. It easily fits two cribs and will eventually manage twin beds. I miss our garage but I LOVE our new bedroom. I got to make it how I wanted it - something I've never been able to do before. We still only have 1 bathroom in the house, but we do have a few more years before that just won't work anymore (although I hate it now... I'm trying to make the best).

The third major thought???
What will the babies be???
but more on that next time.

1 thing

You know -

There were a lot of things that went through my mind when I found out we were having twins.
The first thing was absolute praise. I haven't told many people this (so I thought I'd start with the internet - haha) but we had a really hard time getting pregnant the second time. We went to see my doc to confirm we were pregnant and she sent us to an ultra sound that afternoon to check for a due date. Greg had to go back to work so I went for the ultrasound alone. On the way there I prayed that it would be twins because we knew we wanted more that 2 kids and this way we would get double with one pregnancy. But, as soon as I prayed it I felt ashamed and asked God to forgive me and thanked Him for the baby and prayed that we would have a healthy baby and pregnancy. I felt totally at peace and the notion of twins fell out of my head completely.

I went in for the ultrasound and the lady started asking me a lot of questions. I didn't think anything about it because I had never had an ultrasound at 6 weeks so I wasn't sure how much she needed to know. She got super quiet and said "I'm not sure how you are going to react, but you are having twins." I burst in to tears immediately. I was sobbing because The Lord blessed me. The lady asked if I was happy and I told her yes and went on my merry way.

He has blessed us indeed and some other day I will tell you another thing that went through my mind when I found out we were having twins. :)

there it is

I need to get this off my chest and I need to do it in a hurry because if I don't

B-O-O-M

I might explode.

I am not:
-less of a woman
-less of a mother
-less of a human being

I am not:
-stupid
-selfish (my favorite)

I am not:
-trying to harm my child(ren)
-only thinking of my immediate needs

because I had to have a c-section.

I had to have my first one because Jadyn was stuck in my ribs AND it hurt like none other when they pulled her out. Ya'll, she was stuck. If you have never seen pictures of her at birth then you have NO idea. She was basically folded in half.
With the twins my doctor felt more comfortable doing a c-section because of my previous and a few other reasons. She did not force me, but I chose to believe what she told me as being right. So yes, I knew at 6 weeks we were having a twins and they would be a C and I wouldn't change it for the world especially if you know my birth story.

I think it's great when ladies have an all natural birth. You go girl. BUT, don't judge me because I didn't. My babies are just as healthy, just as happy, and just as beautiful. And a c-section is NO CAKEWALK. Especially when the babies had to stay in the NICU and I had to walk from the parking lot to the NICU 5 days post surgery if I wanted to see the babies.

so to myself I say:
you go girl.

and to everyone else I say:
think before you speak.

Fruit washing.

Isn't it funny the things we get our feelings hurt over?

Sometimes I just can't seem to wrap my head around why I'm bent out of shape. I tend to blame this on the fact that I'm a woman. I think we tend to get bent out of shape a little easier than than men-folk do.

I know I tend to get upset if my sweet hubby doesn't notice something that I've done, or if my kiddos don't appreciate that I've picked up everything...again. I get my panties in a wad when I'm left out or not noticed in situations. It's just crazy. The thing that keeps coming back to me is that I cannot control anyone but myself. I can't make my hubby do things to appreciate me in the way I think he should. I can't make my young kiddos appreciate me, and I certainly can't make other people notice me or not leave me out; but, I CAN control how I respond.

I can respond with love, joy, PEACE, PATIENCE, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.

I have noticed that most of the time when my feelings are hurt the other person has no idea anything has even happened.

Instead of sulking around about it I can instead choose to let the fruits of the spirit wash over me and respond in a different way.

My sweet girl

Sometimes being a parent is hard. I'm sure with 3 girls this will be come "Always, being a parent is hard" :)
I shared with you that Jadyn has been sick off and on but the hard part is I don't know what is wrong. She's very VERY articulate for a 3 (almost 4) year old, but there are some things she still doesn't understand or clarify well. Lately, the major problem has been school. I think her tummy issues are school issues. It's hard sometimes to remember that she has such a soft heart- and I think that is her issue!

She tells me things like the kids don't like her, the kids are mean to her, and things like that. I know this isn't true - most of the time. I suspect that if someone takes a toy from her she interprets it as they don't like her - she has a soft heart. I know she is grieving the fact that her good friends from last year are in Kindergarten this year and she misses them terribly. No one in school has filled that void yet. I'm sure it will come but it is H-A-R-D right now. I'm desperately wishing I could stay home with her!

She is CRAZY SPECIAL to me and the last thing on earth (like most good parents) I want is for her to be hurting, so if you have any thoughts or advice on how I can help my little one adjust please help!

When in Rome

I chuckled as I wrote the title to this blog as I have never been to Rome. I've been to England and through France to Paris, but that's it.

If you read my other blog www.thefranzybunch.blogspot.com then you know that 2 of my 3 girls have been sick in the last couple weeks. Because Jadyn's sickness was tummy related I didn't think I should leave her with the nanny so I took today off. I'm not going to lie I was super excited to stay home today with the girls. I miss our summer routine greatly. It was hard to go to school and we've had a hard time getting in a new routine. I know it will come but it was nice to escape the reality today and have a "good ol day." The only problem is that I've been miserable all day! I forgot to take my allergy medicine last night and have paid greatly for it today. I'm so bummed because I could have done so much today in addition to care for the girls - laundry, dishes, clean up, re-organize and all the other very needed things in our house. Instead I've been lugging around a Kleenex box and trying to relieve the pressure of my wonderful seasonal allergies!

Isn't that just how it always is? You think you may catch a break and then the other shoe drops? That's not entirely true in my situation because I did get to get the babies up and dressed today as well as feed and play with them all morning. We read lots and lots of books and I got to watch Jadyn read books to the girls too. Talk about making this book-lover Mama's heart happy! It's been a very very special sick day and that just almost makes me forgot that there is laundry to do and dishes and organizing and......

Well... hello!

I am reviving this blog as a spot for Mommy to share thoughts, stories, and not so many pictures. The Franzy Bunch is where you will find the pictures and updates of the girls.

I will be working on the look of the blog tomorrow because Jadyn is sick and I'm staying home.